“You have to make people like you.” In the Hunger Games, Katniss is forced to attract attention to herself – positive attention – in order to survive. Through Suzanne Collins’ words, Katniss successfully achieves that in many ways, one way being how she pretends to be in love with Peeta Mellark on national television – this is a reasonable measure since the Hunger Games is a life and death situation, and she didn’t really have a choice. Also, despite the fact that Katniss does this in order to stand out amongst all the other tributes, I do the same in real life.
As an introvert, I now have the friends whom I rightfully deserve. I have earned love and acceptance through my quiet confidence. Through respecting myself, and the people around me. Through taking risks. Through an open mind, and through observing others. Using intelligence to tell right from wrong. Through my conscience that lead me through so many little decisions and sacrifices I had to make. Not hiding my true self but letting it out a bit at a time so others have time to warm up to me. By considering their reactions to what I do, and everything I do, and understanding that everything matters and everything is equally as important as myself, and the people I love and the things I want to achieve. Last but not least, knowing that in the end, none of these will matter unless I let them have an impact upon me, an impact that affects more than me – something that will stay with me even after I die. So I let sleeping dogs lie, because I have a choice. A significance.
I am more than this now, more than the person who used to deprive all the fun from a conversation every time she walked past a circle of girls who pressed their shoulders against one another to prevent her from squeezing in. Even more than the girl who confided to her mother whenever things didn’t work out for her and the girl who simply accepted how different she was but didn’t do anything about it. I now realize that it is impossible to wait for other people to come around and accept me; I have to learn to respect them and understand and listen to what they have to say, because that is the only way I can be accepted – not just at school, but everywhere else. So I stop being a black hole and start being more like Jupiter, the gas giant that is two and a half times the mass of all the other planets in the Solar System combined, the planet of abundance, good fortune and generosity. The colossal sphere with the trendy orange-and-blue stripes. And maybe I can be a bit of Saturn, as well, with a little halo above my head. Consequently, I always find it better to agree with other people than get them to agree with you, since conflict will only work against good reputation.
I don’t feel like I’ve changed that much since the time when I believed in letting things be – the only new thing I’ve learned about was how similar my peers and I really are. It is only now, writing this, that I discover that the natural state of things do not exist anymore; there is nothing natural about our society and how it functions, and almost everything is a result of greed. It is harder to understand, though, what this says about my previous belief. I do understand a part of it, though, and I now realize that this must be why I have decided to make a difference. I have also learned that I already have the power to change the world; I just have to choose not to let the world change me – I just have to exist.